Today is not my day. Late to work as usual. Went to sch with A and missed the bus. Reached sch, wanted to solve issues that happened the day b4 n was called every time i wanted to concentrate on my work. from level 1, to level 4, then to level 1 again. F U PPL! i am not x-men's night crawler that i can teleport anywhere and at any time. if that was not enough, everyone is like last minute all of the time and do not want to do any actual work of their own... heck if i am to say everything here, it would become a novel or book with bloody chapters and shit. is it really so hard to sign and give me a day off. is it so hard for me to get one bloody f-ing day off. why must u question all the things that i say. why must u think that u are always in the right. u are human and it's human to err. bloody f-ing shit that i have to withstand today. I can't stand u and u can't stand me so why do we pretend to get along like we best friends. heck, u only treat ppl nice when u need their help and if u dun need help anymore, u throw them away like rubbish. shit u.hypocrite two face shit. just hate the bloody politics that step on ppl to get ur ass to the top. but hey a title is nothing in the end, everybody dies, only sooner or later. f-ing believe me when i say that once u die, title means nothing in the end. what u do during ur lifetime is what really counts. when u do all this back biting and back stabbing. do u really feel satisfied. shit u for thinking this way. when will u realize that what u r doing is hurting others and making ppl hate ur very existence in this world. why are we born? think abt it, it isn't to torture ppl... well i can't do anything abt it now. u are u and to change u is never gg to happen if u urself do not want to admit that u are wrong and change for the better. this post is just to remind myself not to trust u and ur kind so much. to be cautious of ur kind for u are the very being that i hate to converse with and without an ounce of regret. i will be happy if u got ur just desserts but not from anything that i do but for all the hurt and pain that u have caused others, i hope that u will get the same or if not, something else and divine intervention. i thought that work was shit but now after watching movie, i ended up feeling pissed off. hate it when ppl cut u off wen u r tryin to talk to them. sssh, i'm tryin to hear what they are talking...well f u man. i was tryin to explain shit to u that was interesting and relevant and u cut me off. f u man. pay attention to those ard u coz for something tech, it can always be duplicated but can u duplicate ur bloody friend if u lost 'em? f u man. i just feel like f-ing swearing my ass off in here coz i'm bloody pissed. shit u man. next time i won't even bother. heck i won't even care. u didn't even ask permission to eat my food . i said we could share drinks but not my bloody food. just for the record, if u had asked me nicely b4, i would have given it to u nicely. but why did u had to act as if i owed u the bloody freaking chips?snatching them away when i was freaking eating them. heck i dun care if u were that hungry or just irritated that i didn't bloody offer u the freaking chips but honestly in my mind i was saying what the f lah. i was playing it in my head that i wanted to shove down the chips down ur throat. shit. i am freaking too emotional abt the chips but hey honestly it is not the prob of the chips. it's ur attitude. if u have the attitude to sssh me off from speaking, what makes u want a reaction from me when i'm being cold to u and not ans-ing ur qns back. honestly i am bloddy pissed. f u and good night.
Saturday, May 4, 2013 @ 1:55 AM
AFTER A LOOOOOOONG HIATUS....I'M FINALLY BACK!!!
what's up blog? u must have been lonely when i was not around to type all my nonsense in this little blog of mine.
it's been too long, i know. so i shall give it the nostalgic dear diary essay. Here we go!
Dear Diary,
Today was a day of surviving the pain of sickness that i thought had recovered but actually it was still there.
Came to work like a zombie, was so super tired although i slept quite early yest, i took taxi coz i obviously i overslept.
When i reached sch, there was this guy trying to flag down my cab and it was super hilarious coz i was still in the bloody taxi!
I think he was definitely blind not to see that i was still inside, like hello? so kan chiong for what? saw ghost hah?
Then i was thinking of having breakfast but i had totally no appetite, my body was craving for food but my throat just couldn't swallow.
Kakak Kasturi, the AE, gave me a red bean pau, which is my most fav pau ever but i just couldn't eat it, totally no appetite.
walked like a zombie to my room which is btw at the 4th storey, my 'partner in crime' was on leave, so i had to be independent today.
I sat for a while, checked my email and applied for my leave! hahaha i am so gg to enjoy next week! Monday on Leave! hahaha XD
It's gonna be awesome. Oh ya! this coming sunday will be a jamming session with my very good buddy, Cannie, we will be jamming to
Taylor Swift song, Red! I alr practiced playing it on my acoustic guitar, can't wait to use the electric one! I would so love to get one soon!
The crisp sound of electrifying rhythm is just awesome!
On Monday, i have a date with Athirah Azlan, my junior from Sec Sch. She has always been the awesome studious girl that i have known since last time.
She is one awesome person! I love to hang out with her, this is the truth! Talking about most of the stuff that i don't actually ponder about.
She is very much enthusiastic about everything! That makes her fun! Iron Man 3 and Zoo! I will be waiting patiently for Monday to come.
But that all aside, just this evening, in the Sociology class, SOCA 1010, the prof was mentioning about sleeping early so that your
body can recuperate and repair, if not, this might cause a person to have stroke easily. Now i am scared, becoz, all this while,
i have not been sleeping or have been sleeping late due to insomnia...Even after taking meds, one should feel sleepy right? But not me...
That is why i am talking to you diary! I cannot bloody freaking sleep...Ok then, i am now off to watch some kdrama
and after that i will try to get some sleep, even if it will be for an hour only.
PS: Even when i sleep, i dream of work...
Your Bloody Blogger,
afroBarbie ~ PEACE OUT! XOXO
Monday, September 24, 2012 @ 12:27 AM
Work is tiring me
i know that it has been a while since i have updated this blog. Work has been my priority this past 2 years and a lot has happened since. I must have forgotten all about this blog, so now i am trying to be active again although i know that not many ppl are reading blogs anymore but as a famous phrase from chef wan, i shall say this, "ade afroBarbie kisah?". hahaha :D
I am now starting my 2nd sem of BIRKH degree in islamic revealed knowledge and heritage. The 1st sem was alr tough to go through. I am not so sure about the 2nd sem. I find myself struggling to juggle my life and work. I love to help others but i also want to have time to study but it is not working out so well for me. I have so many assignments to clear off and also my job at the school is just never finish. I have only SUN to myself as my friday evenings and saturday afternoon till nite is the time for BIRKH classes.
I find that my life is full of things that can be difficult to go through but once the hurdle is over, i find myself sighing and this is a sign of me finding work as a chore. I have a boss but it feels like i have none at all. I have no one i can rely on to protect me, this is me generalizing the matter of the fact that the management just does not care about their subordinate and this is so unfanthomable to me. Just make sure i do not see their face outside, i will make sure that i act as if i do not know them at all. They push things to me and blame me when i make mistakes that i know would not be there if they are the ones who are doing the work. I am just disappointed and feel like someone stabbing me in the throat when i try to explain to them the matter at hand. I feel so suffocated and not able to voice out and explain everything as i am always cut off before able to explain the issue. I feel so wronged and used. I am just like the scapegoat again. Why am i always the one being bullied by others when i am well aware that this is not the correct way. Haix. Ppl normally take me for granted and this is not at all acceptable. I am gg to stand up for myself and find things to do so that i would not have to resort to hitting the wall instead of hitting the ppl who hurt me.
Enough of all the emoness. I just want NOV to come fast as i want to go to Yuna's concert! Which is on 7 NOV @ kallang, organized by Live empire. :D I Happy bu de liao! Yuna i LOVE you and i hope that when i see you live in concert, you are as i imagined you to be. Please be the angel that always light up my day with your unique music.Even when things go astray, when i listen to your songs, i feel a lot better and able to go through the work with some sort of happy mindset. In simpler term, YUNA! U light up my world (n_n)
Saturday, April 16, 2011 @ 7:55 AM
Rio
it's a movie mostly bout a bird that can't fly but the songs are amazing and i just love it. my favourite has got to be the jamie foxx and will.i.am - hot wings~ it's a must watch movie from me.
this blog's been dead for many months and i plan to keep it alive so that i can release some of the tension. so far, i've been working in helpdesk for bout a year and it's been kinda hectic. not much to do just keep on answering and logging is mostly the scope of the job. but i gotta tell ya, without patience, no way u can handle the users. stupid qns, scolding u no reason, calling and hanging up...all the nonsense u can tink of. but i kinda like it at first but now it's getting on my nerves. dun noe how much longer i can handle it, but i'll try. coz i dun wan to disappoint anybody. it's not what i like to do.
for kicks, been into torrents, torrenting anything music, movies, dramas. Love it. the joy of torrent! hahaha installed new web broswer, using opera. cool interface and just love the experience. waiting for new asus laptop to come into my life by the end of the month i hope. i can't wait to have more storage to play games, faster response, awesome graphics to watch those hi-def movies. :D shiok! hahaha
need to get out more though. i want to have fun and not just stuck myself at home. family's been through a lot the past month and family matters but still as my bro says: life must go on... so i tink in a way, he's right. that's bout all so far. update ya wen i got the time or if i'am not too lazy.
afroBarbie OUT!
Friday, August 30, 2013 @ 1:19 AM
RUM PUM PUM
Today is not my day. Late to work as usual. Went to sch with A and missed the bus. Reached sch, wanted to solve issues that happened the day b4 n was called every time i wanted to concentrate on my work. from level 1, to level 4, then to level 1 again. F U PPL! i am not x-men's night crawler that i can teleport anywhere and at any time. if that was not enough, everyone is like last minute all of the time and do not want to do any actual work of their own... heck if i am to say everything here, it would become a novel or book with bloody chapters and shit. is it really so hard to sign and give me a day off. is it so hard for me to get one bloody f-ing day off. why must u question all the things that i say. why must u think that u are always in the right. u are human and it's human to err. bloody f-ing shit that i have to withstand today. I can't stand u and u can't stand me so why do we pretend to get along like we best friends. heck, u only treat ppl nice when u need their help and if u dun need help anymore, u throw them away like rubbish. shit u.hypocrite two face shit. just hate the bloody politics that step on ppl to get ur ass to the top. but hey a title is nothing in the end, everybody dies, only sooner or later. f-ing believe me when i say that once u die, title means nothing in the end. what u do during ur lifetime is what really counts. when u do all this back biting and back stabbing. do u really feel satisfied. shit u for thinking this way. when will u realize that what u r doing is hurting others and making ppl hate ur very existence in this world. why are we born? think abt it, it isn't to torture ppl... well i can't do anything abt it now. u are u and to change u is never gg to happen if u urself do not want to admit that u are wrong and change for the better. this post is just to remind myself not to trust u and ur kind so much. to be cautious of ur kind for u are the very being that i hate to converse with and without an ounce of regret. i will be happy if u got ur just desserts but not from anything that i do but for all the hurt and pain that u have caused others, i hope that u will get the same or if not, something else and divine intervention. i thought that work was shit but now after watching movie, i ended up feeling pissed off. hate it when ppl cut u off wen u r tryin to talk to them. sssh, i'm tryin to hear what they are talking...well f u man. i was tryin to explain shit to u that was interesting and relevant and u cut me off. f u man. pay attention to those ard u coz for something tech, it can always be duplicated but can u duplicate ur bloody friend if u lost 'em? f u man. i just feel like f-ing swearing my ass off in here coz i'm bloody pissed. shit u man. next time i won't even bother. heck i won't even care. u didn't even ask permission to eat my food . i said we could share drinks but not my bloody food. just for the record, if u had asked me nicely b4, i would have given it to u nicely. but why did u had to act as if i owed u the bloody freaking chips?snatching them away when i was freaking eating them. heck i dun care if u were that hungry or just irritated that i didn't bloody offer u the freaking chips but honestly in my mind i was saying what the f lah. i was playing it in my head that i wanted to shove down the chips down ur throat. shit. i am freaking too emotional abt the chips but hey honestly it is not the prob of the chips. it's ur attitude. if u have the attitude to sssh me off from speaking, what makes u want a reaction from me when i'm being cold to u and not ans-ing ur qns back. honestly i am bloddy pissed. f u and good night.
Saturday, May 4, 2013 @ 1:55 AM
AFTER A LOOOOOOONG HIATUS....I'M FINALLY BACK!!!
what's up blog? u must have been lonely when i was not around to type all my nonsense in this little blog of mine.
it's been too long, i know. so i shall give it the nostalgic dear diary essay. Here we go!
Dear Diary,
Today was a day of surviving the pain of sickness that i thought had recovered but actually it was still there.
Came to work like a zombie, was so super tired although i slept quite early yest, i took taxi coz i obviously i overslept.
When i reached sch, there was this guy trying to flag down my cab and it was super hilarious coz i was still in the bloody taxi!
I think he was definitely blind not to see that i was still inside, like hello? so kan chiong for what? saw ghost hah?
Then i was thinking of having breakfast but i had totally no appetite, my body was craving for food but my throat just couldn't swallow.
Kakak Kasturi, the AE, gave me a red bean pau, which is my most fav pau ever but i just couldn't eat it, totally no appetite.
walked like a zombie to my room which is btw at the 4th storey, my 'partner in crime' was on leave, so i had to be independent today.
I sat for a while, checked my email and applied for my leave! hahaha i am so gg to enjoy next week! Monday on Leave! hahaha XD
It's gonna be awesome. Oh ya! this coming sunday will be a jamming session with my very good buddy, Cannie, we will be jamming to
Taylor Swift song, Red! I alr practiced playing it on my acoustic guitar, can't wait to use the electric one! I would so love to get one soon!
The crisp sound of electrifying rhythm is just awesome!
On Monday, i have a date with Athirah Azlan, my junior from Sec Sch. She has always been the awesome studious girl that i have known since last time.
She is one awesome person! I love to hang out with her, this is the truth! Talking about most of the stuff that i don't actually ponder about.
She is very much enthusiastic about everything! That makes her fun! Iron Man 3 and Zoo! I will be waiting patiently for Monday to come.
But that all aside, just this evening, in the Sociology class, SOCA 1010, the prof was mentioning about sleeping early so that your
body can recuperate and repair, if not, this might cause a person to have stroke easily. Now i am scared, becoz, all this while,
i have not been sleeping or have been sleeping late due to insomnia...Even after taking meds, one should feel sleepy right? But not me...
That is why i am talking to you diary! I cannot bloody freaking sleep...Ok then, i am now off to watch some kdrama
and after that i will try to get some sleep, even if it will be for an hour only.
PS: Even when i sleep, i dream of work...
Your Bloody Blogger,
afroBarbie ~ PEACE OUT! XOXO
Monday, September 24, 2012 @ 12:27 AM
Work is tiring me
i know that it has been a while since i have updated this blog. Work has been my priority this past 2 years and a lot has happened since. I must have forgotten all about this blog, so now i am trying to be active again although i know that not many ppl are reading blogs anymore but as a famous phrase from chef wan, i shall say this, "ade afroBarbie kisah?". hahaha :D
I am now starting my 2nd sem of BIRKH degree in islamic revealed knowledge and heritage. The 1st sem was alr tough to go through. I am not so sure about the 2nd sem. I find myself struggling to juggle my life and work. I love to help others but i also want to have time to study but it is not working out so well for me. I have so many assignments to clear off and also my job at the school is just never finish. I have only SUN to myself as my friday evenings and saturday afternoon till nite is the time for BIRKH classes.
I find that my life is full of things that can be difficult to go through but once the hurdle is over, i find myself sighing and this is a sign of me finding work as a chore. I have a boss but it feels like i have none at all. I have no one i can rely on to protect me, this is me generalizing the matter of the fact that the management just does not care about their subordinate and this is so unfanthomable to me. Just make sure i do not see their face outside, i will make sure that i act as if i do not know them at all. They push things to me and blame me when i make mistakes that i know would not be there if they are the ones who are doing the work. I am just disappointed and feel like someone stabbing me in the throat when i try to explain to them the matter at hand. I feel so suffocated and not able to voice out and explain everything as i am always cut off before able to explain the issue. I feel so wronged and used. I am just like the scapegoat again. Why am i always the one being bullied by others when i am well aware that this is not the correct way. Haix. Ppl normally take me for granted and this is not at all acceptable. I am gg to stand up for myself and find things to do so that i would not have to resort to hitting the wall instead of hitting the ppl who hurt me.
Enough of all the emoness. I just want NOV to come fast as i want to go to Yuna's concert! Which is on 7 NOV @ kallang, organized by Live empire. :D I Happy bu de liao! Yuna i LOVE you and i hope that when i see you live in concert, you are as i imagined you to be. Please be the angel that always light up my day with your unique music.Even when things go astray, when i listen to your songs, i feel a lot better and able to go through the work with some sort of happy mindset. In simpler term, YUNA! U light up my world (n_n)
Saturday, April 16, 2011 @ 7:55 AM
Rio
it's a movie mostly bout a bird that can't fly but the songs are amazing and i just love it. my favourite has got to be the jamie foxx and will.i.am - hot wings~ it's a must watch movie from me.
this blog's been dead for many months and i plan to keep it alive so that i can release some of the tension. so far, i've been working in helpdesk for bout a year and it's been kinda hectic. not much to do just keep on answering and logging is mostly the scope of the job. but i gotta tell ya, without patience, no way u can handle the users. stupid qns, scolding u no reason, calling and hanging up...all the nonsense u can tink of. but i kinda like it at first but now it's getting on my nerves. dun noe how much longer i can handle it, but i'll try. coz i dun wan to disappoint anybody. it's not what i like to do.
for kicks, been into torrents, torrenting anything music, movies, dramas. Love it. the joy of torrent! hahaha installed new web broswer, using opera. cool interface and just love the experience. waiting for new asus laptop to come into my life by the end of the month i hope. i can't wait to have more storage to play games, faster response, awesome graphics to watch those hi-def movies. :D shiok! hahaha
need to get out more though. i want to have fun and not just stuck myself at home. family's been through a lot the past month and family matters but still as my bro says: life must go on... so i tink in a way, he's right. that's bout all so far. update ya wen i got the time or if i'am not too lazy.
afroBarbie OUT!
Peulopil = Profile
afroB. is not my real name
What is my character like?
Likes to do whatever i want
But i do care for the ppl around me
Even if they dun seem to care
Or even if i always refuse to do what they tell me to
I would always come back and fulfil their wishes
I like to say lame things i guess.
My fashion sense is wack.
Dun ask me to wear formal coz i always dress like a slacker.
People tend to treat me as invisible
if i dun talk or if i dun greet them. It's a given.
My Wish?
To get a job.
Become a useful person.
Lose weight by exercise. Been eating too much.
Try different things?
Write an original song.